Thursday, July 06, 2006
DAY 7 of the world of nc16.. and it sucks... but i can't blame any one... as most problem that i m facing now were creating by me... trying my best now to solve every thing... and have every thing in teh right place...
yup... yini told me to love my self.. .and not to hate myself... and thats why i have been doign all this shit as i hate my lfie soo much that i create problem to make my life even worst... haha now i reliease.. all the shit i have done... hahaha...
thank you yini and the others who tried to cheer me up... and i finally know wat the hell is wrong with me...
haiz... saying sorry to every 1 that i did stupid things too... as on that day i wasn't really my self.. i lost 2 things on the same day less then 12 hours... i lost a friendship and i lost her... ya... i totally lost this 2 things that are rather special to me... if u can understand... thinking that they might not care about me soo wat in the real shit shud i care about them??but then who knows... in the end i lost their respect and trust... for her... i totally lost her now... i kept holding on thinking that mayb i can have a chance to be with her again within this year... but who knows... she already found some 1 that can heal her heart and soul faster than me... and i lost another 3 more things... and that is love, trust, and respect ... haiz..
u shud now who u are that i m referring too.. cos i dun wish to disclose any one name in here... as this may result in more conflicts and people will start spaming me again...
sorry if i have ignore u ..i thought mayb if ur a true friend u shud care for me and help me when i m in need... but i was wrong... i started the whole damn fight any way i can't blame "him" for punching me first...
and sorry for losing u .. as i wasn't as caring and loving.. and in the end lost u even deeper... now u have finally foudn some 1... and i wish u and him the best of luck...
stay happy alright guys... and mayb wat i said on the other blog was wrong... i shud not be hating u guys... but instead u guys shud be hating me for being an idiotic fool...
its not "who wants to have such a friend like them" but "who wants to have such a friend like me"
//[**Knocking on Heaven's door for the answer i seek**]\\
Posted by ShenG at Thursday, July 06, 2006