Thursday, June 29, 2006
its not about the pain i get... its not about the tears i shed... its not about the blood i spill...its about the pride i gain... its about the dignity i try soo hard to get ...its about the respect that i earned...
is this wat i get for turning 16?...
is this my fate?
is this my destiny?
will she care about me when i got beaten up?...
soo many question ran through my head..when i was fighting with that ass hole....
u think u can get angry and just start hitting me?
have u ever though of the ways u treated me... and u want me to respect u ??!!
u say i m guai lian... but hello plzz la... so many times u hit me for fun.. i just ignored... and do no shit to you...ever since sec 3 .. u have been doing shit to me.. and i just forget all about it... u call me so many nicknames that i dislike.. and i just ignored and forget about it...i have been tolerating.. and think that once i m out of hong kah i can forget about this bastard... but i didn't know my patience wasn't strong enough to tolerate...
so what i just sit on ur place and ddn't wana get up... so what.. big deal man.. come on its just a seat... u can oways find 1... and by the way the com in sch sucks.. so wat for u wanna use it...
for wat fuck u wanna fight wif me... in the end... u are still the 1 who get into a greater trouble than me...yes u will feel happy and strong cos u already injured me... but have u ever thought of the consequnces... and yes i m stupid enough to fall into ur trap... but i didn't cared... cos all i wanted from u is to respect me... just respect me... and stop doing stupid things that can hurt any 1...
i did not fight cos i was angry... i wanted to fight so that i can gain back my rights... my dignity.. my ground... my pride... and the most of all my respect...
and if ur reading this...
yes i m sorry for sitting on ur place and did not want to get up...
but i want to u and the rest who are reading this something...
when u get into the "outside" world... it will be totally different... u think ur the biggest in school.. but remember there are others bigger than u outside... so try to control ur anger... and fight is not the only way to resolve things...
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Posted by ShenG at Thursday, June 29, 2006
Wednesday, June 28, 2006
2day... 3rd day of school.. rather fast ... sian man.. 4 months time n lvl liao.. walao... 5 months time bye bye hong kah hello ite...sian man.. starting of lesson... sit in quadrangle liek wat fuck... totally ridiculous... her class was having humantities... didn't care ... i noe it was her class... but i didn't wanted to care soo much... i just restrict my head to turn and look at her... i dunno why... i still wanna look at her,... haiz... didn't noe why...
english period ... went to hall... haiz... saw her again... haiz... just didn't wanted to look at her.. i just dunno why... had this feeling like... its very funny... i oways have this question in my head... shud i look at her?... shud i think about her?... if i look at her .. will she look at me?... if i think about her ... will she think about me?... many question going thru my head now... rather headache... recess time... bought my food.. eat wif my friends... i kept looking over to her table.. trying to find her... like last time... didn't noe why... even finsihed eating.. i kept looking at her table... during the holidays i use to think that i have already gotten over it... but when i came back to school.. that feeling still lingers within me.. i still have the feeling that i m still wif her.. i didn't noe why...
during m.e period.. mr tan talk about expert thingy... then he said out 1 question.. i can't really remember wat was the question but i can remember wat he explain of that question.. he said... its a feeling that u dunno wat costs the unhappiness within you... i think that shud be me..cos some times i feel kind of funny and lonely and unhappy.. and i dun even noe wat it costs me to feel this way...
after dismissal.. when i was walking down the stairs to the foyer.. i kept over looking into the canteen.. i did not noe why...walk out of school... went in to the lift... felt very funny... didn't noe way...out of a sudden i just laugh out... haha... its weird ...
its weird... very weird
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Posted by ShenG at Wednesday, June 28, 2006
Monday, June 26, 2006
2day was the opening of school.. damn sian..woke up as usual 6.45.. damn sian ... feel liek sleeping again.. but got up... bathe ... eat bread then go school liao... reached school.. wanted to go to toilet... then i though john was in the toilet then wanted to join him.. but that Mr chin saw me... so i dun dare to go.. so went to sit.. then was damn sian... then felt asleep.. then woke up... just nice national athem.. then stood up... then after that sat back.. then i tot john was behind .. so i went behind then was like sian.. omg!!!.. then Mrs long saw me... then told me to go infront cos of my hair.. then told her ... cher my hair not long la.. but i still went infront... sian man.. first time caught grooming for hair.. wat the hell man.. i some more thought i wouldn't get caught.. then sat there... then wrote my name.. then mr faizal call people up to check my hair.. then i kena cut walao.. damn suey man... but then i tried to escape then went back to mr faizal then beg him that i will cut.. then he say ok then told me to let him see my hair tmr... haha... damn lucky la... then went back to class.. then go back class.. then see ..john nvr come.. lol.. i some more thought he hide in toilet ...then mrs chong was like talking all the usual la... wat seating arrangement la.. rulesof the class la ..walao she talked for a whole of 1 hour...then after that mr said class.. then go to hall.. do wat oral thingy la... then sian.. go for recess 15 mins late.. then only had like 20mins+/- time for recess.. but atleast managed to finish.. after recess... was music... then music walao.. kena gang bang man... actually startign was kannan cos 2day was his birthday. .then every gang bang him.. then he must have told tiao sin that my brithday is next.. then tiao sin told every 1 .. then i becoem the next walao every gang bangme man.. sian... lol.. then finally go into the com lab.. slack around tal ktalk..then next lesson was cpa... cpa oso slack la.. then dismiss then went home.. reached home on the com.. use abit then 3++ went down for lunch then cut my hair...then came home sleep..then woke up ate dinner.. the now here i m blogging..
hahahaha... sian man... tmr got sch again. .dun feel like going man
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Posted by ShenG at Monday, June 26, 2006
Sunday, June 25, 2006
told alot of people that is i dun hvae time to blog... not i lay to blog or wat... cos this 2 days i was outside till very late...like the day before yesterday.. went out wif my mac friends... john sandy sky guo wei and esther.. then reached home like 12.30 soo damn tired... some more the next day i need to go to chalet... so i slept nvr blog...
k la i think i blog about the 23/06...
lol... another 1 of the best day i had.. lol.. .was damn hyper fun and happy...
actually i didn't had enough money for the whole outing... but i brought 40.. end up i came home wif only 2.. is liek wat the hell..!!!
met up wif john sandy sky guo wei and esther... then as usual la sandy and guo wei oways late.. lol.. then around 10.50 went and took bus 197 to ECP.. lol.. on the bus was like lol.. crappign here and there is like as if the whole bus was ours... talking untill soo loud.. then finally reached ecp... went to toilet first... then rented bicycle... then started cycling... but 1 thing ... sky can't ride.. then was like ..sian... but can't blame.. i oso last time can't ride de.. is like i around last year then noe how to ride a bicycle.... then after that .. started riding... then sky tried to ride . .but she kep tlosing her balance... then sandy caught wif sky.. then told us to go ahead first... then she wanted to pei sky ... but then.. before we can go ahead... guo wei is already sooooo ahead.... i was like wat the hell.. so i esther and john went looking for guo wei.. then reached a coffee shop.. found guo wei.. then john wanted to change bic... so he and guo wei went back... while i and esther stayed at the coffee shop.. then bought sugar cane... walao.. damn exp man... but no choice they wanted to earn oso... then esther bought nasi ayam to eat... then she can't finish so i helped her to eat abit... then finally john guo wei returned... then i cycle back .. then cycle there saw sandy and sky.. so i cycle to sky there.. then sandy went ahead first... so i pei sky... sky was liek trying to ride.. actually she can ride.. but she kept puttign her leg down.. that why she kept losing her balance... she can balance... but only thing her hand kept shaking so her handle was like right left right left..but then finally we reached the coffee shop.. then i eat again .. then guo wei wanted to rent a 2 rider bic.. so john guo wei and i and esther went to the bicycle shop..then reached there the guy over there said need the receipt.. then guo wei nvr bring so he said he give his number but that guy though was give his receipt number but wat guo wei really meant was giving his hp number..lol... but any way gotten the 2 rider bic then guo wei cycle esther back.. then actually i and john cycle first but guo wei and esther reached first..lol..then after that started to cycle again.. then after that tot of going to changi beach... cos i though ecp can connect to changi.. then i yesteday jus reliease that is pasir ris then can conenct to changi.. not ecp... sorry ah.. john if ur readign this... sorry ah i cock up..lol...then cycle cycle... cycle quite long la... then end up reached not changi beach but changi airport outer perimeter..lol.. then cycle there and back again... every 1 was like tired.. then john kept complaining his leg cramp cos he was cycling wif sky.. then told him .. is like that 1.. cos u very long nvr cycle then suddenly u cycle for soo long is sure cramp de... then after that went back... return the bic.. then sandy sky and esther went to the beach.. while me john and guo wei went ot mac buy water... wah by then i only left wif $6.. then after that.. reached the beach then they kept wanting me to go in to the water.. cos i dun have extra clothes... and i m tonning over night so i nvr bring any... then finally i went down.. lucky i wore boxers.. if not i m like lol.. then play wif them in the water... then guo wei pass me his specs.. then i put it next to his bag.. then after that we go and bathe... then abathe already.. took bus to bedok.. reached bedok.. then guo wei reliase that his specs were lost.. then i was like o shit... makde a mistake.. shud not have out it near his bag shud have put in his bag... then i john adn guo wei took bus back to ecp while esther sand and sky stayed at bedok.. then we kept finding but can't .. so i told guo wei i wil pay half of the price of ur new specs... then cannot find... took a cab back... then reached bedok... then we went to the mrt... then they wanted to go watch midnight show.. but i can't cos i next day got chalet .. + my sis dun allow me to ton over night.. so i headed home.. then they alight at city hall said my byes.. then sat on the train.. all the way to clementi took 99 home. reached home around 12.30.. bathe then went to sleep..
then next morning woke up.. wahaha... around like 10++.. gotten ready to go to changi chalet..
lol.. tell u the trip to the chalet was like 1 hour and 30 mins... damn freakin long... sat on the mrt sit untill my batok pain.. sit all the way to tampines..then alight at tampiness ... bought some goreng pisang... then ask around on how to get to changi chalet... then sat bus 29 ask the bus driver... then after 30++ mins of sitting on the bus and holding my pee i finally reached aloha changi chalet, chalet K.. reached there..met debear, magma, vergil, pat , hildalagious.. then went up to pee then went into another room lol.. all others were there... then i oso joined in and play.. i was like laughing hell man.. kept laughing laughing... then after that went downstairs watched tv. .then deco came.. then deco talk to us.. then after that they started the bbq... wahaha... then deco called me up to get my dog tag and t-shirt. wahaha.. then i m reliase that i m proud to be in sgdod.,..muhahhahahaha ... the bbq was damn fun man.. kept laughing.. then hitsu brought out the bakens..neobear ax me hitsu all shared the bakens.. then told the others only premier gold members of sgdod get to enjoy this.. but in actualy fact there wasn't any premier gold members..lol.. i we made out ..lol.. that after then.. i need to go off first.. so i ride on hkr car to pasir ris mrt station.. then took the mrt bac kto je.. then ride 334 back home.. woo reached home around 11.30.. soo tired from the laughing.. then i slept..
then woke up.. just to specially blog thi sblog blog entry.. wakhaka
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Posted by ShenG at Sunday, June 25, 2006
Sunday, June 18, 2006
2day work... woke up late... cos yesterday work untill quite late then reached home 11.30 .. then slept... then woke up at 9.30 which i shud start work a 10.. so i rush rush.. but end up i sitll 10 leave house.. ride bike there... then reached liao was around 10.20.. then punch in did morning... then learn abit of morning from auntie jamilah.. lol.. auntie jamilah damn funny man.. she oways acted like lawrence... wear the pants high high then laugh oso laugh like him.. wahaha we call her lawrence part 2.. damn funny ... lol.. then carried out the apple pie... on the tray i got like 12 then i put 3 pies into the warming bin... then i drop the whole tray then i like waste 8 pies..lol ..then did abit of kitchen then was pulled to counter... walao then christy say must hi - 5.. then i over there omg... sooo embarassing.. but atleast i still did 2 hi-5.. lol.. then after that went to do hot... lol.. did lobby selling got 7 receipts wooo.. all in all earned $139..wakakaka..after hot went for break... ate wif louis and yi ni.. lol.. i take alot la... chicken fan + 6pc nuggets+ small sprite.. sian shud have taken a med 1..lol..then after that went back counter... wah by then i damn du lan and sian.. i fucking hate that xiu wei... k i was servign this customer then i serve finish liao then he asked me for curry sauuce.. then i didn't hear xiu wei call me take curry sauce for her customer.. then i take liao i put at my customer tray.. then her customer scolded her for not giving him curry sauce.. then i dunno ma.. then xiu wei can tell me of saying that she kena scolded cos i nvr give her curry sauce for her customer.. then i was like wat the fuck... u got scolded ur problem la.. walao.. come and blame me.. wat the hell... then serve.. then li shi call out 1 6 pc dipper.. then i oso have 1 6 pc dipper.. then lei siang pack liao then say "lai yong sheng colelt ur 6 dip" then i take.. then li shi come and take.. dun have.. then li shi tell me is her 1.. then i tell her.. lei siang call me to collect then i collect lor how i noe ah..lol.. then help abit on fries.. then did counter.. then i ask around that whether they like that bloody xiu wei.. then they all agree.. wahahathink the whole mac hate her.. except 1.. the yenni.. waloa.. alot of peopel told me that yenni like xiu wei.. walao. .to me is like a fuck up protecting a fuck up.. then liek that equals total fuck up.lol... then after that did hot.. then after that punch out leh..total up my lobby selling.. then helped to wipe tray then after that talk cork wif qiao ting.. then after that punch out.. then eat 1 beef fan waste... then went home leh... bought minced pork noodle.. then makan... bathe then play on some dod.. chat .. then here i m blogging...k la...
tmr going to movie wif some of my sgdod friend...wahahaha
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Posted by ShenG at Sunday, June 18, 2006
Friday, June 16, 2006
wakakaka...soo sian recently
every day is work work work..
2day is oso work but 2day the work quite like lol???..
woke at 9.15.. when i actually tot i work at 10.30.. scarly i remebered i work at 10.. wah rush like hell man some more raining cannot ride bike... so rush to the bus stop.. reached there jus nice 10 .. punch in.. then went and help auntie kok tien take mc chicken and fish dippes... then i step into the freezer i was like OMG...SOOO MUCH STOCK HOW THE HELL AM I GOINNG TO CLIMb.. then saw ah ben inside then he told me he have to iside for mins jus to take the mc chicken and fish dipper.. then i was like wat the fuck... -.-* then he came out.. then i like expert in this kind of thing ma.. then went in...for awhile found the mc chicken.. but need to climb alot.. then my head kena teh lamp ontop.. then i was liek ahhh.. lol.. then the next 10mins found the dippers... but was ratehr hard to take out... so slowly take out.. then finsh liao... auntie lucy told me to do counter then ok la... sian.. dododo... then call me do lobby then after that went back to counter... then i was like sian.. did counter for 3 hours.. straight withoutstopping for a drink.. sian.. then later 2.30 punch out or break... makan.. muhahaha brought sis lor mee.... take without telling her lol.. then cook.. then eat... but not nice... cos u noe la.. all the cup noodle all the same taste.. then eat liao..not full so took 6 pc nugget to eat... then finish liao li shi call me to arrange freezer ...wahaha my expertis... wakakakaka... then arrange freezer took me less then an hour.. within 30mins finish ... some more with soo much stock.. u can't even walk into it.. have to climb boxes after boxes.. after taht went back to counter... then do counter untill 5.30 .. went to do hot.. do untill 6.45 punch out muhahaha.. slack aroudn with wen chieh... then esther told me that john finding me ... then went out saw john and yini.. then over there slack wif them.. then after that... went off with them and gui hua.. cos they want to eat.. but then i cannot cos mum cook liao.. then i went off first.. went to the bus interchange ... damn sian man...went there.. gt 1 shop that sells teddy bear... then i suddenly tot back the time i had wif her... haha... dunno why... i jus suddenly did... then boarded 334 went home... kept thinking and thinking... was like rather funny... then after that went home ate dinner... then bathe then here i m blogging...
wakakakaka i wanna thanx the 3 people for buying my present.. soo thoughtfull of u guys wakakaka... thank you all again..
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Posted by ShenG at Friday, June 16, 2006
Thursday, June 15, 2006
sian.. yesterday cannot blog due to my sis not letting me use the com... wat the hell lor... she watching tv... then she oso using com then she dun let me use... sian...so 2day i blog..
yesterday not much la.... went to sch early morning for remedial.. lol.. the remedial surppose to have like 5 people but in the end only 3 go... me simon and pei jun.. then come liao mrs chong late ..lol.. then do worksheet... lol.. make me remember alot of the maths question... then 10 went for break...lol... mrs chong say latest come back is 10.30.. soo i and simon went out buy curry puff eat... then we reached the class early... then some more 10.30 liao mrs chong haven come... then until 10.40 she come.. lol... then was like wat the hell.. then did some more worksheet... then do finish liao... waited for simon to finish.. then halfway smsing... samantha called.. then i was still in class... then i was like o shit..lol.. then tld mrs chong. excuse me i got call... then her face was like diao,..lo.. then samantha ask me whether i 24 can work.. but i say not so sure yet... then put down liao.. then simon finish liao.. then went off... then walked to bus stop.. cos tot of going to sci cen mac to make some schdule changes if no samantha do the schdule then cannot change liao...then halfway to bus stop bought chocolate cos of that sandy say i owe her chocolate.. sian.. so buy liao.. missed 1 198.. then waited ... then on my mp3.. scarly no batt sian... so waited for the next 198.. come liao... went to sci cen mac... reached there i tot not much people.. scarly soo much customer... lol.. then went into manager room.. told samantha cannot work for the last week.. cos wanna slack..lol.. then bought lunch in mac... eat inside the manager room cos outside no place to sit... then eat finish liao.. talk wif samantha for awhile.. then went off ler... then waited for 198.. i dunno why... i can take 2 buses that is 335 and 198.. but i prefer 198.. cos of some reason... mayb??..shud be ba... then reached my bus stop alighted... then i turn my head saw her then i was liek wat the hell... wat the hell is she doing here... then i walk walk...didn't wanted to call out to her .. i jus wanted to pretend that i didn't see her.. scarly audrey call me... so i jus acted stun... then wave then walk off... then cross the road.. reached home... watched band of brothers that i borrowed from videoezy... watch halfway john call me.. asking me whether i wanna go jp.. then i was like huh?? ... then he say call me go down take present... then i noe she audrey and john were together ... so i jus aiya dun wan la... then john resisting ... so i jus ok lor... then she call me... she told me not to go down... then i say ok... then i sms john whether they wanted me down anot... then john say come down take present only.. then i say aiya nvm la... u give me during sch days lor... then told john the real reason why i didn't wanted to come down... then... john say working time then give me.. then i ok lor....
didn't expect that oso... i was like wat the hell.. they actually buy something for me..??..i was like err... i must be dreaming...
but just wanted to thank john audrey and her.. for doing that... wahaha.. thanx guys...
but the person i wanted to thank most is her...
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Posted by ShenG at Thursday, June 15, 2006
Monday, June 12, 2006
wahalot of days nvr blog liao.. now i m blogging.. wakakakaa... 2day not much la.. just went to work.. late again sian... haiz... recently i m oways late for work.. dunno why...then punch in at 11.15 then did counter.. then auntie lucy call me go to kitchen cos not much people in kitchen so help at the grill side.. then help. .after that 2.30 went for break... cannot tahan... was hungry even though i ate bread around 10.30 .. then punch in from break carried on doing kitchen at grill side.. then auntie bee koon come 2day.. wakaka.. lol.. she come very noisy de... she nvr come very quiet..lol.. then alot of jokes la... gui hua me and auntie bee koon kept laughing... then auntie sharon came in liao around 6.. then oso joke joke.. lol auntie bee koon some more say wrong.. "ahh sharon ahh give me 6 buns.. 3 mc chicken 3 4" in hokkien then i was liek laughing laughing.. then she oso laugh... lol.. then fun lah... then 2day got the mac family day mah... but not much peoople invite la.. then yenni say only those who got invite people then can eat.. then i was like ... i got invite.. i invite auntie bee koon she is my friend.. ..lol but that was only a joke then punch out ler... say yinni christy and john.. then talk talk.. then esther call me help her buy thing.. then ok lor.. buy... then john me christy and yini went to the coffee shop and eat... but i nvr eat... cos .. be4 that... i do grill then i did a double chesse then eat myself..lol.. then help esterh buy fried carrot cake.. then cycle back to mac to give her.. then cycle back to coffee shop to talk with they all... lol... kena pinch by yini omh.. damn pain man.. lol.. think my chest can become B cup ..lol... then talk talk... then 9++ i went off first... then ride home... damn fuck man.. made a mistake shud not of speed thru the traffic... omost knocked by car.. knn... my hind wheel kena the car bumper.. then i jerk abit.. omost fell over... but nvr.. wah god saved me ah... then quickly ride home.. then eat abit.. then bahe.. did some sms .. then on the com... then blog..
haiz... i dunno when can i stop clinging onto my past... christy ask me some things regarding me and "her" u guys shud noe who... not christy... is "her".. but didn't noe how to reply christy.. then made me think ... haiz... i dunno... it has been a month now... since the break up ... and i m still thinking about her day and night... i dun really noe wat to do... some times i may look as normal outside... but in the inside i dun really noe what i m doing... trying to be sad but happy... tryingto happy but sad...??...
haiz...
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Posted by ShenG at Monday, June 12, 2006
Friday, June 09, 2006
ok i have nothin to blog on... cos it jus nothin to blog on... cos every day is work work and more work...sian.. gonna watch silent hill on the 20th with my sgdod friends wahahahahahaha...
think tmr will blog ba...
see u tmr
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Posted by ShenG at Friday, June 09, 2006
Wednesday, June 07, 2006
wahahaha..went and watch the omen.. wahaha actuall is watched midnight show... wahahaha... damn nice man...
k la started wif any normal day yesterday... then play dod... and had prelim oral... the oral liek rather easy leh... haha... average la... 9am .. then 10.30.. then came home slept then on com play dod for awhile then chat then went to sleep ..woke up around 5++ .. watched tv... then ate little bit of dinner.. then carried on to fragginf in dod then 8.30 went to sci cen and find john... then go toilet talk cork.. then go his house.. cos he say he wanted to bathe.. then wait liao... then ok liao.. then took mrt to chua chu kang... to meet up with sky sandy and guo wei... but in the end i and john reached first... so went into lot 1 to walk walk walk.. then went out saw sky sitting ther... then john say about cfo then i started to get hungry ... so i john and sky went to mac ... john bought cfo meal.. then i bought large fries.. then eat eat... then drink .. .and waited for guo wei and sandy.. .then they come liao.. waited for john to finish his cfo.. then finish liao.. walked to bus interchange to take bus to cinnielesiure... then at there saw alex....lol.. then 190 come liao.. take bus... at bus behind talk cork and take photo damn funny man... then was liek the only 5 of us wwere like soo noisy in the bus.. then reached cinnieleisure then go there buy movie tickets.. then see wat the hell 12.15 show sold out.. so instead went and watch the 2.45am show.. then by the time was only 11.50.. got 3 hours to spare... so went to kpool and play... go there play... then were oso rather childish la... lol.. funny la... then play barefooted.. lol.. then 2 liao clsoe table.. went to cheers to buy thing and eat.. but then wasn't hungry so nvr buy... then guo wei bought the curry rice.. lol he say liek dog rice... but i eat quite nice leh... then went up to the theatre... sit and talk cork.. then 2.30 went into the cinema... then the show start liao.. was like wooo .. the omen.. whahahahhahahaha damn nice man... cannot tell how the show gose... lata u all noe the story then not nice liao.. wahahaha sandy remember the mirror hahaha... lol.. . then after that show was like 4.35 .. then walk circles in orchard... haiz that bloody guo wei la.. any how lead the way.. lol.. walked for like 2 hours.. lol.. then felt damn hungry... then guo wei suggested go gim moh which is in bouna vista to eat cos he say the food there damn nice... k lor then waited for bus.. bus finally come... then i nthe bus sleep... wahaha ok la..not that nice... then reached gim moh around 7.15 then went to eat... order minced pork noodle.. haha tell u the mince pork noodle is really minced pork.. walao.. a little bit meat only... not worth of my 2.50...lol.. then saw john and guo wei eat nasi lemak they say oso not nice.. lol.. haha... then finish eating liao sit at coffee shop talk cork.. then walked to mrt.. lol on the way there got bird cage then joh nand guo wei go and ka chiao 1 of the parrot.. lol think the parrot liek hot sia.. walao like wanna fight... lol.. then went back to mrt station took mrt back.. then alighted at JE... then say bye to sky sandy and guo wei ... then left me and john walekd down.. then john walk off liao.. then went to bus there took 334.. reached home 9.30.. bathe... sleep... wake up went out to eat lunch...then frag on dod .. then came out to blog... wahahahahaha..
lol.. first time i spend my night life soo nice ... and first time in my life spend a whole of 12 hours outside... and i mean outside not camping...
camping not counted...lol
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Posted by ShenG at Wednesday, June 07, 2006
Monday, June 05, 2006
wahahaha yesterday damn happy.. muhahaha... got accepted into the SGDOD community... wahaha waited for like 3 months liao... finally got in ... wahahahak 2day... i hate 2day..haiz.. tot i 10.30 working scarly i call mac samantha say i 10.. damn sian i some more 9.15 wake up.. and i need like 20mins to get there.. sian.. then rush there... then reached there... forgot to punch card.. walao.. sian 15 mins of my work time gone.. haiz... then from 10 to 11.30 did store room wif auntie jamila... haha damn funny ah... talk about scv and sch.. haha.. then after that did fries.. walao.. i hate doing fries.. every time down de... haiz... then all day kena pinched by esther gui hua and xue wei. .walao ... sian.. cos i m like the only guy crew aroudn during that time.. and i was like walao... win liao lor... then lucky lawrence come liao then i didn't feel that pai seh.. lol.. then punch out for break... ate CFO.. haha damn long nvr eat liao... haha stil lthe same niceness..lol... then punch in back did backing up of counter... can say oso counter ic ... help here help there... xue wei haiz... the most blur in the counter .. some more short change.. haiz... always need to help her... then heard sandy and xue wei lost $10 from the counter ..lol.. kena warning letter... haha... serve u right for being blur.. and oways pinching me... and the bloody esther.. some times i jus wish i can jus slap her man... oways pinch my face... then i every time pinch her face.. then she complain to gui hua then gui hua come and pinch me... walao... sian... next time esther working i not working liao.. haiz... then 4 punch out leh.. ride home.. bathe ... use com.. play dod... haha feel soo good being apart of the sgdod community
[SGDOD]+ShEnG+[N]
//[**Knocking on Heaven's door for the answer i seek**]\\
Posted by ShenG at Monday, June 05, 2006
Saturday, June 03, 2006
time passes soo fast... is like now already june... it has already pass by 5 months... and now its the starting of june.. many things happened to me the past 5 months...fell in love for the past 4 months... but in the end fell out of love... is part of a procedure called life.. as some of my friends always says... haiz...today nvr work... felt rather slack so i decided to blog on my life abit...
haiz....
some times i dun even noe whether i and her are jus friends or wat... ever since she not by my side anymore... i felt like even worst... somes times i feel being betrayed.. some times i feel soo happy some times i feel soo empty some times i feel so sad... some time i jus want to cry out...
part of me feels betrayed and being rule over... but the other part of me thinks of forgiving her and continue to make her happy... its like i m stuck in the middle of a cross road... i dun even noe which to go for... if i go the betrayed part of me.. will i nvr forgive her and and nvr even talk to her... but can i still be friends wif her?... if i go for the forgivign part of me... will i get ruled over?.. and same old things happened to me??.. i dunno.. i really can't answer my own question... i m oways stuck in the middle...
recently kept smsing her... i oways feel like i was wif her... but then come to think of it ... we are already over... i called her... i oso felt the same way... but once i put down the fone i think of it again.. its reaility... we are already over... i dunno... man.. i just dunno..
every night before i sleep i oways think about her... untill now i stil think of her and the times we had together ... never a word can be describe the feeling i had... and oways remember the times i held hand with her... i can feel her being happy and forgotten all her bad times... but its all over now...
i really dunno wat to do... shud i jus cary on?..or cling onto my past?.. if i were to cling onto my past ... i can feel both hatred and forgivness... its the same as i carry on.. i will oso feel the same...
i didn't noe i will still feel this way...
its had already pass by 3 weeks.. and i m still thinking of it... still wondering why... still remebering the times we had... still clinging onto my past...
//[**knocking on heaven's door for the answer i seek**]\\
Posted by ShenG at Saturday, June 03, 2006
Thursday, June 01, 2006
wahaha.. yesterday nvr update.. cos came home.. then was about to update.. then my sis room the light spoil.. then was forces to off the com.. so sian.. so 2day after work then update..yesterday.. went out wif the normal bunch .. except come out 1 gar fu..lol..then went to jp watch x-men.. on the way there on the bus found 1 sim card..lol.. reached there liao...sms john.. then he reply saying he in arcade... then went into the arcade... then saw him playing the bball.. wah he play damn fast sia he throw..i ownself oso jealouse...lol.. then after that helmi dovan and gar fu come liao.. then went and buy tickets... then john kept saying the tickets buy lata cos the queue very long.. then i say do booking lor.. then in the end helmi qeue faster then nvr do booking liao.. then talk talk ... wif dovan and gar fu while john and helmi buying ticket... then told dovan that i found 1 sim card... some more is a 3g M1 . .. then i tried.. they say enter pin code.. then i sian...lol.. untill now i still try to figure out the code.. lol.. then after that bought the ticket then went down banquet to have lunch... as usual john and dovan will oways fight on dogs and pigs.. haiz.. wonder when will they stop.. i think after they leave hong kah then will be the same..lol...then after that eat lunch for like 1 hour.. then still got 1 more hour to spare.. so we went up staris 5th floor to see the kpool.. scarly go there.. the place wasn't ready yet... so nvm went down to arcade... then play play play.. then walk around the arcade.. then john ask me whether i got play the drum before.. then said got once but that was like very long liao... i played the drum thing like 3 years ago.. lol.. once only la then play untill i pai seh then dun wanna play liao.. then yesterday play again... wah the feeling like come back liao.. like i wanna play.. lol played once still not satisfied.. lol.. but any no money liao... so nvr play.. then play untill4 then went into the cinema... watch x-men.. watch came out was 6++.. then helmi wanted to cut hair.. so helmi and john go the 2nd floor the hair stylist cut ... then dovan me and gar fu was like jokin.. lol.. then went to arcade wif dovan gar fu and john.. played the drum again ..lol.. damn fun... haha.. cannot stop.. wasn't satisfied oso.. think mayb i ownself go there train on the drum lol.. haha.. then after that helmi came out liao.. then saw his hair... like last time.. but was nice la.... then went home...
then 2day... wahaha... not much la... is workin and mor workin... sian did counter whole day... but lol.. punch out liao played a prank on esther.. then alicia and i were like laughing laughing.... look whose more clever now esther ..lol
k la dun wanna say soo much liao.. gonna sleep liao
tmr rest day..lol...
//[**counting down the days till shes my again**]\\