Thursday, July 27, 2006
Day 28wahaha..
changed my blogskin yesterday... thats y i nvr blog.. actually wanted to blog yesterday.. but then took alot of time doing the new skin.. i browse for like 30 mins..lol...
today nothing la.... only some idiotic fellow irritated me... can't control my anger... shouter at him.. then come another fellow ...like wana fight like that... i oso not scolding him..then he just came in ...
never attend chinese ...as almost every 1 in the chinese class has conflict within me.... so to make things easier... just hang out with the amar and gang.. lol... sandip like siao... then noe a secret from kannan...hahah...after that was science... science actually got test...but then Mr tan changed to tomorrow... then during science... the idiotic fellow that irritated me was very noisy.. then kannan kept calling him to shut up ... then say wanted to fight... then i told him... dun dirty your hands with his filthered blood... its useless... let god handle it .. as what Mrs chong said... what gose around comes around... so 1 day he will noe what it really means to be aggitated and irritated.. and i m not the only 1 that he irritates... its like omost the whole class he irritates... not only class even the teachers... haiz.. feel sad for him..what a minute... what for i feel sad for such a guy... he will burn in hell 1 day... and that is when i will laugh...
as 1 song that gose "
a boy kick me in the butt last week ..and i turn and smile at him.. i didn't punch infact i wished him well cos i will be laughing when his burning in hell.."
haha..that right man... and i will even take a picture of myself laughing at him.. = X
haha .. tried my 6600gt on silk road... wooo... soo much diff... can see
Using the 9200se
Using the 660gt
VERY BIG DIFFERENCE!!!!
//[**Knocking on Heaven's door for the answer i seek**]\\
Posted by ShenG at Thursday, July 27, 2006
Monday, July 24, 2006
Day 25...wuahahahha..
a super happy day for me...hehehe hahaha hohoh
but in school ok ok la....nothin lor... the usuals..only thing dun have pe... and during music nvr go lab... but 1 thing damn funny.... kannnan was making business then raden like want to buy the "thing" for 50 cents.. but kannan keep insisting of 60 cents.. then i say aiya help u all settle la.. gave kannan 10 cents...lol... then kept laughing laughing...
then recess time oso... haha amar making business sia... sell SKL.. 60 cents.. 1 stick some more say from singapore... dunno whether true anot... later scarly like vasanttan sell marl.. for 60cents... malaysia de...lol...basket...
after school.. help zul top up his hi card..then went home.. slept... around 4+ woke up... then... on the com.. wanted to uninstall some things ..so that can mek my com run faster... walao..damn suey man... i accidentally go and uninstall my graphic card driver..walao..!!!!!.. then walao... called up edward... then told me to buy a new 1.. then i remember ... i wanted tobuy the 6600gt... wahaha... so went to jurong point and buy... lol...bargain with the shop owner... sian man.. the price cannot be lowered... so bought the graphic card at $219... atleast better ma... last time sell $249.. haha.....
then edward came my house... then we fix the graphic card... ok.. on the com... we both ... was like ..."wuoooooo!!!!".. haha... then tested the graphic on silkroad... we oso go "wuooooo!!!".. lol... then after that he went off to meet her girlfriend..wahaha...
damn happy man.. finally i got my 6600gt...
//[**Knocking on Heaven's door for the answer i seek**]\\
Posted by ShenG at Monday, July 24, 2006
Friday, July 21, 2006
Day 21..was ok...in sch nothing to do... sleep during 1 lesson... talk during another.. surf internet for 2 hours... and some more kena called up by dentist..lol... and eat during recess..
ya... its as usual as it is...but only thing that ends at 12.30.. reached home around 1.. bought chicken rice to eat... watched final fantasy advend children... then after that felt bored.. on computer .. thought of playing silkroad... but then they say server closed down due to inspection wise... so since soo long nvr source liao... then went to play day of defeat source... haha ever since natasha gave me the source... i didn't play much... due to graphic card problem...too low... then some times it will heat up my graphic then the graphic card will spoil.. so mayb tot of saving up and buy the GeForce 6600gt cost around $190.. hope it drops to $150.. then i will buy.. muhaha some more include fan on it sia.... lol... then after that mayb buy anotehr 512 ram... so that i can play battlefield 2.. sian man ... bought battlefield 2 last year.. then untill now i haven even touch it man.. due to my graphic card and ram that can't surpport the game...
haiz..
o well...
was playing source then took some screenies...
ok here gose...
the pic will be small as the size is only 133kb more or less
1 of my favourite allies weapon the M1 Garand
Using iron sight on the M1 garand
using the allies MG...forgot what was the name
this was the part that i kena shot ..cos i was taking the screenie.. then 1 axis came up.. 1 shot to the head...
the Bazooka... neobear tought me how to use it
This was the part that i kamikazed...hahaha
well thats all i had... haha really had fun... very long nvr play... and yes my frag still sux... but who cares... hahaha
its just a game
//[**Knocking on Heaven's door for the answer i seek**]\\
Posted by ShenG at Friday, July 21, 2006
Tuesday, July 18, 2006
day 18...not much of a thrill ...just some normal schooling days...woke up 7.15... bloody fone alarm nvr wake me up.. and my bloody sis nvr even care about me... then untill my sis ask me got go sch 2day then i wake up... wat the hell sia... rush rush rush.. in end still made it on time... slept during assembly... then come sci... whoel sci lesson sleeping... cannot tahan.. too sleepy.. last night 3am then sleep.. cos of playing dod source on USA server lag like hell ah..!!!
then pe... pe i ooso damn slack... wsan't really awake.. played dodge ball..didn't really played well... play with some idiots kept making fun of me... kept quiet... didn't wanted to care about them.. after that english... sat with kannan.. mark his paper... he mark my... lol... any ow mark... then do correction... after that went to change... talk cork alot.. bloody fadil.. strip infront of us.. then show he penis... call me to suck.. then i push away.. walao... freaky wierd lor...but damn funny la.. kick his ass then he fell.. then after that went for recess... bought food ate... then after that went to line up.. then maths... then those idiots oso kept irritating me ...keep calling me names... heck care them too.. then me afiq kannan sat behind talk cork... and afiq then gay sia... make me high then play play.. walao... damn gay sia... kannan oso damn gay... then after that was EOA
eoa went to lab...then those idiots oso kept irritating me... didn't care.. thought to myself.. need to bare with 2 months then i won't be seeing those idiots... paste the label for eoa cousework.. then mrs long damn funny man... told her i her forgot my index number.. then she ask me for my index number... then tell her to search for my name... then take the sticker... then she ask me where is my index number on the paper... then i told her.. cher i already told u i forgot my index number how to rite.. lol...then went back paste ..wrote my index number.. pass up... went in to net.. surf silkroad for some guide...then after that log off... went to sleep...then bell rang.. went home...
hahaha... today is liek the most gayest day... bloody afiq... make me horny.....
//[**Knocking on Heaven's door for the answer i seek**]\\
Posted by ShenG at Tuesday, July 18, 2006
Saturday, July 15, 2006
day 15 in the world of nc 16 ... was... fun!!... alright... awesomehaha...
not really day 15.. was more of a combination of day 15 and day 14... went to cathay with my sgdod pals to watch pirates of the carribean...great show... u guys shud watch it.. its a damn good show...
then oso traded my mp4 for edward's psp for 3 days..lol.. kind of pathetic right..lol... but any way..
around 6++ left the house... took the bus there... listen to psp ..wahaha kind of like pwnage!!! over there showing off... haha but not my... sad... went inside the mrt... then i started to reliease... there this girl.. who went up the same bus as me... alighted the same lace as me and even took teh same train as me.. then i like.. diao.. wat the ... but she look rather chio leh...hahha... but dun wanna go into all these stuff... make my life complicated... now my life is like not soo complicated liao... then alighted at raffle place... then oso saw her alight at raffles place.. then took the north southline to doby ghoaut.. then she oso took the same trian..lol.. then arrived at doby ghoaut... and even alight the same 1..lol.. very funny... then i walk to plaza singapura... then i turn back.. even saw her.. lol... walao... sooo zhun man.. wal kto plaza singapura.. then walked up to starbucks to meet them.. then turn back ... she like gone liao..lol...
reached there... natasha gave me my dod source that i ordered... then over there talk talk.. and waited for others... then axmilli took out his laptop and check on the movie tickets... walao.. all nearby movies all full house.. sian.. man.. so in the end decided to watch 1.50am... but some cannot make it.. so then we go to cathay and re decide again.. reach there liao.. neobear delita and hitsu went and buy tix.. then in the end they say dun wan liao.. in the end wanted to pospone... then went for dinner at hans... after dinner... neobear came up with the decision.. who wants to watch the mid night show.. then i was like .. wat the hell.. u wanted to pospone now u want to watch?... haha.. but then i wanted to join in... cos already gone al lthe way there then go home... wat the hell lor.. so i just watch... then hitsu delita neobear d-bear and me... went and watch.. then the others went home liao... bought the tickets... then the time still 9++.. so went and play lan at paradiz centre.. played for 3 hours.. play untill sian.. lol.. then after that 1.20 went off... went back to cathay... then on the way d-bear kept giving me lame question.. walao... damn lame lor... but freaking funny lor... well its not really lame question is more of a tricky question... stupid man its really stupid... then go to cathay.. delit and hitsu bought potato chips while neobear and d-bear bought popcorns then i bought hotdog combo.. then went in to watch... wahaha... damn nice man the show.. very relistic.. i give it a 9/10.. u noe why is it 9 and not 10.. cos make me soo suspend sia... then in end got 3rd part .. walao... sian.. haha.. its a must watch man... if u watched the first ... u must watch the 2nd... and slowlt u must watch the 3rd .. waha.. and by the way.. spider man 3 is coming out in 2007..wahaha...
then after the movie was around 4.30.. then went to mac and slack.. ate breakfast there... then around 6++ went home liao.. on the train with delita hitsu and d bear while neobear went off the other train... hitsu went off as his staying bedok.. then slowly delita then me...
then boarding 334.. slept the whole bus journey... reached home around 7.30++.. bathed... slept then woke up... wahaha... blogging.. haha
//[**Knocking on Heaven's door for the answer i seek**]\\
Posted by ShenG at Saturday, July 15, 2006
Thursday, July 13, 2006
day 13 in the world of nc16.. was rather ok... not that sucky...haha like it any way...did alot of stupid things today... curse alot.. think i cursed the most today out from my whole life.. kept swearing and cursing... .. then during english mr said nvr come.. went to 3rd floor to sit... felt bored so slept.. slept abit.. then went to toilet... didn't noe amar and kannan were there... so just over there slack... swear and swear again... then take photo then talk shit over there then hafiz came in... told us he wanted to shit ... in the end over last cubical smoking... wah lao... smoke smoke... knn damn smelly man... cannot tahan.. kept sniffing my vics... then kannan... suck abit ... then went there... and for the first time took my first puff ..woo feels good man... mayb i shud take up smoking??...lol.. neh not now la... mayb 10 years later then i will really start to smoke... mite never know ....
i last time pri sch oways tot that i will not be in smoking... haha who knows... my mind set changes every now and then... that time in cubical was like try la try la... in the end tried... haha... nice sia... but think wun smoke de la... still early for me...
finally that "annoymous tagger with vulgar wordings" have been banned.. warn him twice... but he didn't listen... so who cares... and dun think that i dunno who u are... bloody ass... if u stil lfind any way to tag... ur really in dead meat man... this type of thing i can report to police for cyberl harassing... dun make me do it ... dun think i m stupid in html things... i noe ur ip address alright.. and i banned u ...i even deleted all ur post...
//[**Knocking on Heaven's door for the answer i seek**]\\
Posted by ShenG at Thursday, July 13, 2006
Monday, July 10, 2006
day 10 in the world of nc 16... sucks...had english oral.. treat it as normal... didn't cared much oso...
yini kept calling to love myself.. lol... rather funny love myself... but some times i dun quite love myself...
some times i hate myself for doing things that i wish didn't done before... who nvm la... its all in the past now... trying to be the new me... yup the new me... even though is still sucks abit here and there...
started to like listening to jerry c"s guitar solo ..very nice... very soothing.. and some times it kills times... as his solo are always 5mins++... haha trying to find his album.. but can't find it any where... sian.. think i will order it overseas...
want to comment on something...
hey.. the "annoymose tagger with vulgar wordings" i dun really care about what u say ok.. u only say this type of thing .. cos u dun have any 1 help to calm u down at this type of situation... atleast yini was there for me when i needed her... and yini will be there for any 1 that needed her... and plzz la... the"annoymose tagger with vulgar wordings".. if u dun like my blog ... just fuck off la.. i dun welcome tagger with such no respect.... and if u want me to respect u ... the least u can do is to type out ur original name...
//[**Knocking on Heaven's door for the answer i seek**]\\
Posted by ShenG at Monday, July 10, 2006
Thursday, July 06, 2006
DAY 7 of the world of nc16.. and it sucks... but i can't blame any one... as most problem that i m facing now were creating by me... trying my best now to solve every thing... and have every thing in teh right place...yup... yini told me to love my self.. .and not to hate myself... and thats why i have been doign all this shit as i hate my lfie soo much that i create problem to make my life even worst... haha now i reliease.. all the shit i have done... hahaha...
thank you yini and the others who tried to cheer me up... and i finally know wat the hell is wrong with me...
haiz... saying sorry to every 1 that i did stupid things too... as on that day i wasn't really my self.. i lost 2 things on the same day less then 12 hours... i lost a friendship and i lost her... ya... i totally lost this 2 things that are rather special to me... if u can understand... thinking that they might not care about me soo wat in the real shit shud i care about them??but then who knows... in the end i lost their respect and trust... for her... i totally lost her now... i kept holding on thinking that mayb i can have a chance to be with her again within this year... but who knows... she already found some 1 that can heal her heart and soul faster than me... and i lost another 3 more things... and that is love, trust, and respect ... haiz..
u shud now who u are that i m referring too.. cos i dun wish to disclose any one name in here... as this may result in more conflicts and people will start spaming me again...
sorry if i have ignore u ..i thought mayb if ur a true friend u shud care for me and help me when i m in need... but i was wrong... i started the whole damn fight any way i can't blame "him" for punching me first...
and sorry for losing u .. as i wasn't as caring and loving.. and in the end lost u even deeper... now u have finally foudn some 1... and i wish u and him the best of luck...
stay happy alright guys... and mayb wat i said on the other blog was wrong... i shud not be hating u guys... but instead u guys shud be hating me for being an idiotic fool...
its not "who wants to have such a friend like them" but "who wants to have such a friend like me"
//[**Knocking on Heaven's door for the answer i seek**]\\
Posted by ShenG at Thursday, July 06, 2006
Wednesday, July 05, 2006
Title: I am just a kidArtist: Simple plan
I woke up it was seven
I waited 'till eleven
Just to figure out that no one would call
I think I got a lot of friends
But I don't hear from them
What's another night all alone
When you're spending everyday on your own
And here it goes
I'm just a kid
And life is a nightmare
I'm just a kid
I know that it's not fair
Nobody cares 'cuz I'm alone and the world is
Having more fun than me
Tonight
And maybe when the night is dead
I'll crawl into my bed
I'm staring at these four walls again
I'll try to think about the last time
I had a good time
Everyone's got somewhere to go
And they're gonna leave me here on my own
And here it goes
I'm just a kid
And life is a nightmare
I'm just a kid
I know that it's not fair
Nobody cares 'cuz I'm alone and the world is
Having more fun than me
What the hell is wrong with me?
Don't fit in with anybody
How did this happen to me?
Wide awake I'm bored and I can't fall asleep
And every night is the worst night ever
I'm just a kid
I'm just a kid
I'm just a kid (I'm just a kid)
Yeah, I'm just a kid (I'm just a kid...Repeat 6x)
I'm just a kid and life is a nightmare
I'm just a kid I know that it's not fair
Nobody cares 'cuz
I'm alone and the world is
Nobody wants to be alone in the world
I'm just a kid and life is a nightmare
I'm just a kid I know that its not fair
Nobody cares 'cuz
I'm alone and the world is
Nobody wants to be alone in the world
Nobody cares 'cuz I'm alone and the world is
Having more fun than me
Tonight I'm all alone
Tonight nobody cares
Tonight cuz I'm just a kid tonight
think 3/4 of my life is some thing like this...
sorry alot of weeks nvr post song liao cos kept forgetting to post.. alot of problems affecting me lately...trying my best to overcome all the problems
//[**Knocking on Heaven's door for the answer i seek**]\\
Posted by ShenG at Wednesday, July 05, 2006
Tuesday, July 04, 2006
just living in my own world of lonelieness... now i really feel how it feels to live within the darkness of life... even if i cried no 1 knows.. even if i was injured no 1 knows...haiz...life sucks anyway...
meaninngless life....
mayb i m just to be hated by every 1..
thinking that mayb ignoring those friends... they mite ask me wat happened .. but in the end they too ignored me.... haiz... aiya nvm la... who needs those kind of friend that dosen't care any way..
atleast the malays welcome me ... they understand my joke... understand how i felt... nvm la...
1 phrase that i oways like to listen to..
its from the show .. Jarhead
"welcome to the suck"
WHAT A FUCKING LIFE ...
WISH I HAD A GUN AND JUST END ME LIFE... I DUN EVEN DARE TO PROCCED TO MY LATER PART OF MY LIFE
//[**Knocking on Heaven's door for the answer i seek**]\\
Posted by ShenG at Tuesday, July 04, 2006
Sunday, July 02, 2006
a new year a new break through as some may say...2nd day of being in a world of nc 16.. haha.. edward welcome me.. lol..
not much la... is still the same "life".. some times its just meaningless...
alot of homework...
my english homework.. the composition.. i wrote alot...think i rite most of my blog entry into my composition.. as it was about my life...stole some idea from myself..lol...
not much to type about la...
just 1 thing that i want to ask myself...
my mum told me
since i fought with "him".. i shud just not to stay soo close to "him" but then.. i will lose quite a number of friends this way... espcially 2 of them...john and helmi haiz.. cos these 2 were rather close to "him"..
but mayb i just forget all about them and just live in my own world of lonelieness?..
1 thing i wanted to comment on john..
if wat i ever i say on u that were wrong i m sorry and i have no offence too...
i fought with "him" and john just stood there and did no shit... then the next day i went to school.. i felt rather sian .. and i tot mayb john mite come and joke with me.. but in the end he nvr did... he just sort of ignore me... haiz...
mayb i shud not be soo close to john any way??...
haiz...
let my faith and destiny decide for me...
//[**Knocking on Heaven's door for the answer i seek**]\\