Saturday, June 03, 2006
time passes soo fast... is like now already june... it has already pass by 5 months... and now its the starting of june.. many things happened to me the past 5 months...fell in love for the past 4 months... but in the end fell out of love... is part of a procedure called life.. as some of my friends always says... haiz...
today nvr work... felt rather slack so i decided to blog on my life abit...
haiz....
some times i dun even noe whether i and her are jus friends or wat... ever since she not by my side anymore... i felt like even worst... somes times i feel being betrayed.. some times i feel soo happy some times i feel soo empty some times i feel so sad... some time i jus want to cry out...
part of me feels betrayed and being rule over... but the other part of me thinks of forgiving her and continue to make her happy... its like i m stuck in the middle of a cross road... i dun even noe which to go for... if i go the betrayed part of me.. will i nvr forgive her and and nvr even talk to her... but can i still be friends wif her?... if i go for the forgivign part of me... will i get ruled over?.. and same old things happened to me??.. i dunno.. i really can't answer my own question... i m oways stuck in the middle...
recently kept smsing her... i oways feel like i was wif her... but then come to think of it ... we are already over... i called her... i oso felt the same way... but once i put down the fone i think of it again.. its reaility... we are already over... i dunno... man.. i just dunno..
every night before i sleep i oways think about her... untill now i stil think of her and the times we had together ... never a word can be describe the feeling i had... and oways remember the times i held hand with her... i can feel her being happy and forgotten all her bad times... but its all over now...
i really dunno wat to do... shud i jus cary on?..or cling onto my past?.. if i were to cling onto my past ... i can feel both hatred and forgivness... its the same as i carry on.. i will oso feel the same...
i didn't noe i will still feel this way...
its had already pass by 3 weeks.. and i m still thinking of it... still wondering why... still remebering the times we had... still clinging onto my past...
//[**knocking on heaven's door for the answer i seek**]\\
Posted by ShenG at Saturday, June 03, 2006