Tuesday, April 04, 2006

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

FELT SOOO ANGRY IN SCH... AND IS THAT I FELT SOO ANGRY WITH MY SELF i dun even noe y... every time people make fun of me.. make fun of my race make fun of dear name make fun of dear... and i jus sit there and didn't do anything.. i promised my self that i will fight for my pride and dignity.. but wheneva they make fun.. i jus did nothin at all.. i jus treated like nothin happened... i acutlly ignore them... WHAT THE FUCK I M DOING.. i noe... edward told me to control myself...cailm my anger with myself... that wat i have been doing all this time...

people hit me... people kick me.. people make fun of me.. people say wat eva shit on me.. people pick on me.. people bully me..WAT THE FUCK... HELLO.. i m not born to be do all this shit ok.. i m born from a pleasent family ... i m a normal guy.. dun eva do all this shit to me.. alright... this time i promise my self sooo hard that i will cut a slit on my tounge that i stand up for my rights and dignity..... dun think u i m some geek or nerd that u can pick on.. dun eva underestimate me.. u will feel my wraith upon ur neck.. that i will swear to god that i will hit the fuck out of them if they were to provoke me again... and i swear to god that i m not gonna let them make fun of dear's name or my family or my race.. cos this time its time that i get to my old sch days.. the day when i used to be a real gangster... time that i get back to life .. no more lying from myself from the past.. is time that i show my true identity.....i dun even noe why... m i really that bad..?


felt angry with my self when i m in the gym.. can't really carry those heavy weights cos i didn't had the strenght to carry that much.. i dun even noe why... but the feeling is coming back slowly.. the inner strenght is coming back.. the outer courage is coming back... no more some nice guy.. sorry if i will hurt u dear..cos i was nvr meant to hurt u...

HAIZ.. WHY... WHY GOD...GOD WHY ARE U DOING THIS TO ME.. WAT HAVE I DONE TO YOU...


//[*to see you when i wake up is a gift that i think i can't be real*]\\

Posted by ShenG at Tuesday, April 04, 2006